give me a minute...

I use this site, for the most part, to show off pictures of my kids, my house, my family, and even great shopping buys on occasion. I underwent a hysterectomy a week ago yesterday. I don't think I was prepared for what followed. I guess I knew it would hurt, but nothing prepared me for the extent. The pain has been sharp and consistant. Anyone who knows me well knows that I don't like being down for long. I thought I would be able to power through this and get on with my life in a few days. This is officially kicking my butt! The frustration of being so tired, not being able to start the summer with my kids at the pool or at the park. There is nothing like knowing that your three year old can ABSOLUTELY out run you. But there has been other pain as well. I turned 31 a few weeks ago. This just seems like a surgery for a 50 year old. I have three of the most amazing kids on the face of the earth, but the removal of the organ which bore those miracles brought up emotions I didn't know were there. That, I was definitely not prepared for. We are thrilled with our family and satisfied that we are done. Being in the prime childbearing years of my life however, my hormones still think another baby would be a good idea. One more thing I wasn't prepared for. My family and friends. How amazing are the people in my life? My husband really stepped up to the plate. He was truly Mr. Mom this week. My mother has been invaluable. I came out of surgery, said hello to my husband, and asked "where's my mom?". She satyed with me in the hospital for two boring days and then came back up this week to take care of me and the kids. This week would have been impossible without her. And my friends...oh my friends. The meals, the phone calls, the visits. With all of the pain and frustration came an overwhelming sense of love. Thank you all for your embrace. I will remeber it most of all. And I promise, more pictures of my flowers and children in the days to come.