Sunday, August 31, 2008

the big ::c::



(A drawing is coming, promise)


I haven't felt much like blogging lately. I wish I could say that I have been too busy (i have) or that I really didn't miss you (i did).  But I have had a cloud around me lately.  A very dear friend of mine was diagnosed one year ago with stage four ovarian cancer.  She was admitted into a hospice program a few weeks ago.  I wish you all knew her.  She is fabulous!  Strong and stubborn.  Sweet and still more than a bit of a smart ass.  She has kids that are 9 and 6.  She could be one of the coolest moms I have ever met.  And she is dying.

I have been sitting with her while her husband is at work about three days a week.  I don't have words for any of this.  Just sadness.  In no world is this fair.  I spend my days thanking God for every second I have with her and for every second I have with my own children.  

Will you all do me a favor?  Pray for her.  Pray for her sweet family.  Pray for every minute and hour that she has left.  And pray for me will you?  That I can be strong when she is not.  That I can show grace when there is very little around.  She has taught me so much.  

28 comments:

Stacy said...

oh gosh. what a heartbreaking position you are in. I'm so thankful she has you though...

Monkey Giggles said...

You are an angel. You will be blessed beyond all measure because of your sacrificial love for your friend. God has given you the greatest honor in tending to her body and soul.

I will definitely be in prayer for everyone.

When you get a chance please keep us posted.

rachel said...

I am so sorry to hear about your friend Heidi.

Sarah and Jack said...

Oh Heidi. That is so very hard. Particularly when there are young children. :-( It is a very kind thing you are doing, not many people are able to do that. I wish you and her peace in the coming days.

Holly said...

Oh, Heidi, I am so sorry. My prayers are with her, and you, and especially her kids.

house on hill road said...

i'm so sorry heidi. big hugs.

Lara said...

Heidi- I have been praying for her to feel no pain and just feel peace and I know you are one of the angels HE has sent to help her with that. Your friendship means so much to me and I know that it does to her as well. My prayers are with you two and both of your families.

Elizabeth said...

So sorry to hear about your friend. The good ones are always taken first, isn't that how the saying goes?

Oh and because I am catching up, Happy Blogiversary.

Collins said...

I'm so sorry about your friend. My prayers are with you, her, and her family.

Katie Jean said...

oh heidi, I just feel immense sadness for this situation. It just breaks my heart. I will keep you all in my prayers.

Let me know if there's anything I can do.

kat | Taylor Made designs said...

Praying for you and your fiend.
How lucky you both have each other.
be well~!

Alicia A. said...

Oh, Heidi. I'm sending good thoughts to all of you.

Hug, hug.

Kim T said...

Heidi,
I love keeping up with you through your blog. I miss seeing you like I did when we were in MOPS. I am praying for you and your friend and her family.

Sandra Evertson said...

Sending all good thoughts and prayers to you...
Sandra Evertson

Mariss said...

She sounds like a truly remarkable and special mom and friend. My heart goes out to her and her loved ones. I'll keep you guys in my thoughts. And I'm so sorry.

miss chris said...

I'm so sorry hear this, Heidi. We went through this with a friend three years ago and words just don't do it justice...

You're in my thoughts and prayers, sweetie. Your friend is so very lucky to have you as hers... xoxo

Erin said...

Oh Heidi, how tragic. My Heart and prayers go out to your friend and her family...and to you as well. I can't imagine how difficult it must be for all of you. My heart goes out to her children too. I wish I could somehow offer comfort but I know in this situation words are meaningless. I will offer you my prayers instead.
(((HUGS)))

Leigh Ann said...

Prayers? Done. You got them. Lots of them. And hugs, too.

LA xo

Anonymous said...

She is very lucky to have a wonderful friend like you. We could all be so lucky.

lera said...

That is so terribly sad. It breaks my heart to hear it.

Keep strong.

African Kelli said...

Praying for you and you friend. I am so sorry!

Sandy said...

She is in God's hands. And we'll never understand. I lost my mom to OV CA, so I know the pain. I, in turn, had preventative surgery because of hi tests.
Trust and pray, my friend.
Love and prayers.

jessi said...

I'm so sorry to hear this Heidi - how kind of you to serve her in that way. Ryan lost his mother to ovarian cancer before I even had a chance to meet her. We will be participating in a benefit run for ovarian cancer research in a week and a half - I will be thinking of your friend. God bless.

Chara Michele said...

Oh sweetie that is tough! I will definitely say a prayer for her!

Dee Light said...

Such sad news about your friend, and yes I will pray. You are such a good friend to be with her in these dark times.

Kerry and Rachel said...

I am so sorry. You are a good, strong woman to be there, even if you are sad.
Our thoughts are with you.

MamáChanga said...

So sorry, I will pray that God provides you with the strength and courage you will need. Many, many prayers for your friend and her family.

Hugs & Blessings!

giddygoat said...

Long time no see. Are you doing ok?